A Few Thoughts...

I am new to this blogging world, but I'm trying to 'keep up with the Jones's', so to speak. I have so much to be thankful for and wanted to share my world with anyone interested in following. Mostly, I guess, this is for my family and friends, but I am interested in broadening my world to new friends.

With this Blog, I hope to, not only update where my kids and I are and what we are doing with our lives, but also, to begin sharing a little bit about my testimony. It's been quite a journey these past 7 yrs. but I've finally reached a place in my life where I can speak and share without bitterness, anger or un-forgiveness. Now I can share from a place of healing.

Matthew 26:7 says, "there came unto him a woman having an alabaster box of very precious ointment, and poured it on his head, as he sat at meat."
This is my 'alabaster box' or blog, if you will. It is my most treasured thoughts about the people, things and events that mean the most to me. I hope this little blogspot of mine will help somedays and inform on other days. I'm already enjoying this little journey...

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Perception

I'm looking out over the Lake in my backyard and thinking about how my day would have started just a few years ago during my divorce and the darkest point in my life. I'd wake up, take my anti-depressant medication (Zoloft and Wellbutrin), then lay back down and just let the weight of my life overwhelm me. I knew I should be up moving and doing things around the house, but I was literally paralyzed. I felt so alone and lost. Everything I thought my life was suppose to turn out to be was just a cloud of dust that blew away overnight. How could this woman that was once so strong and independent thinking get to this point without noticing where I was headed. It seemed like there was no way out of this darkness...all I know is today 3/24/10...the darkness is gone, the meds were given up a little over 3 yrs. ago and I have once again reclaimed the strength and confidence that had disappeared for so long. Where I would have only seen a Lake that I could just jump in and drown my pain, I now see a Lake that I can get in a boat and row myself across. PERCEPTION...it's what we all need to overcome! How do you perceive your problems? You can either see a Lake to drown yourself in or get in the boat and row yourself across to the other side. Not a profound analogy but something that jumped out to me today. It is a beautiful Day! I now see with clarity and smell the fresh air!
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4 comments:

  1. AnonymousMarch 24, 2010 at 8:27 AM

    Angie,

    Your post is beautifully written. Congratulations on overcoming what had to be a very difficult time in your life. I am sure your Dad's influence over the years gave you the foundation you needed to battle through the tough times. Again, congratulations Angie. Your overcoming is no small thing.

    Danny Fagan

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  2. Shoulders17March 24, 2010 at 9:46 AM

    I think your post is very touching...and I can relate to a degree...We all get to a place in life where the doors all shut...Im glad the door that shut in your face...now opened up wide and you are present once again. And living in the moment in happiness:) Im very strong and independent as you mention about yourself...Sometimes life throws curve balls at the strong....But Im glad you found inner peace and your still standing tall..God Bless

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  3. AnonymousMarch 24, 2010 at 12:54 PM

    I'm blessed to read your blog. Dreams do come true. Your life is evidence. Remain strong and know your happiest days are just ahead. I love you and pray for God's best to always be found in your life.

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  4. Nate the GreatMarch 31, 2010 at 10:12 AM

    Thanks for blogging Angie. I too am in a dark place right now. I don't doubt my God at all, but I do feel forgotten sometimes. I know it isn't so, but I feel it. Fear is my worst enemy. I know that God is not about fear, but love....but again...my heart and my head seem to be on different pages. Any way...thanks for listening and thanks for sharing a part of your journey.

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