The alarm went off this morning at 7 a.m., I rolled out of bed threw on my warm-up and tennis shoes. I grabbed my IPod, earphones and I was out the door. As I began my walk, I stared to go down the list of 'to do's' for the day/week. "So what's the date?" Ok, today is the 8th of November. I have to do this by the 10th, that by the 15th and then I've got this on the 20th...I was laying out everything, in my head, that needed to be done. Then it hit me...the 8th...there's something significant about this date, but what is it? I kept coming back to it, the 8th, the 8th, the 8th...then it hit me! Today marks the 5 year mark of my divorce. WOW! I couldn't believe it! Not that I couldn't believe it had already been 5 years, but rather that I had forgotten and had to stir up my memory bank to remember why this date was significant.
For me, this is a miracle! A major accomplishment! For so long, I dredged my body, mind & soul through the mud and crud of that terrible season of my life...divorce. I thought I'd never forget anything that happened. Slowly, but surely, day by day, as I got further away from that season, I forgot. I let go of one more thing. I released one more pain, one more hurt, one more bad memory. It's amazing what time can do. My Dad told me all along, 'Let time be your best friend'. I hated it when he told me that, but he was right! Time had been my friend. Five years...WOW!
I have found numbers to be symbolic in my life. I don't live my life according to them, but they have significance to me and meaning at times. I don't think it's ironic that my divorce was finalized on the 8th, five years ago. Five is the number of completion and Eight is the number of NEW BEGINNINGS! I am celebrating today complete wholeness! I can honestly say, God has healed me from my past! I'm not bitter, I'm not angry, I don't hate anyone...I'm healed! I'm so glad, that I didn't rush out and marry the first person to come into my life after my divorce, and I'm so glad I didn't settle for what was in my life at that time. I've waited and allowed TIME to be my friend. Oh, I haven't done everything right, and I've made many mistakes along the way, but, I never let those mistakes define me or defeat me. I always picked myself back up and start over.
I have a wonderful relationship with an amazing man now! I couldn't have this peaceful and trusting relationship if I hadn't gone through all the JUNK I had to go through, alone. I needed those years to get rid of the baggage I carried. Now, I'm in a NEW ERA! Not a new season. You see, seasons come & go, but an era, now that's longer! This ERA of my life will catapult me into my ultimate DESTINY!
Don't let life push you to rushing into something that isn't meant to be. TIME! Let TIME be your friend. Know how to be comfortable with being alone. Know how to make your own decisions. Know what your personal 'likes & dislikes' are and have your own friends. Know what makes you 'tick' and don't settle for anything less than God's BEST!
It's time we stop living from Season to Season and start living in a NEW ERA!
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