Today was one of those days...it started out good, but for some reason, I was feeling very emotional all day. I can't explain it, just 'one of those days'. When these days come up on me, I'm rarely prepared for them. I mean, really, how do you prepare for a day of emotional stress? For me, it differs from time to time. My 'moment' today was one of feeling tired, overwhelmed, concerned about the future, anxious about tomorrow, the 'what if's' and 'what about's' of every day life. I call these times 'my moments'. A moment where it's just best for everyone in my life if I step away for a couple of hours or so and take time to breathe & reflect.
I may be the only one who feels this way, but I woke up today wishing I didn't have to make any decisions, pay any bills, balance any accounts, answer any questions, walk or feed the dogs, feed the kids or clean the house, oh and on and on the list goes. I just plain didn't want to do anything. It was a moment of 'numbness' to everything around me. I didn't want the radio or TV on, I didn't want to answer the phones or talk to anyone. This may make me sound like a selfish person, I don't know, but, all I did know is I needed 'a moment'.
You know, a moment to just sit on a bench and stare into space, a moment to stop the 'merry go round' in my head, a moment to just be invisible. These moments don't make us inhuman, but rather real. It's important to have moments like these so we can stop the 'roller coaster' of life, get off and catch our footing. I spent Mother's Day at the Theme Parks and rode 4 Roller Coasters in one afternoon with my kids. After I stepped off of each one, I was wobbly & shaken, my equilibrium was off a bit. It took me 'a moment' to start walking straight again. Our lives are a little bit like that. We get to moving & going so much that we lose our footing. We have to step off for 'a moment' to get us back on track. These moments don't mean you're depressed or slipping backwards. They simply mean it's time to take 'a moment' for yourself. Step away from everything and just breathe. Everything will still be waiting for you when you decide to get back in the game, but for just 'a moment', just let your mind go blank and sit in silence. I used to be so afraid of silence, but now I welcome the serenity of no noise. It is soothing and therapeutic to the mind, body & soul.
I don't know when your 'moment' might stop by for a visit, but when it does, embrace whatever emotions come on you. They're your true feelings, and they are OK to feel. God gave them to you and he will help you through them.
Take 'your moment'...you deserve it!
This is just what I needed to read today. I read a statement on your profile -- Why do bad things happen to Good people? I so wish we knew! Thanks for this blog today.
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